i cannot keep a public blog for long...it would be suicidal...everyone has his or her own world that can't share with anyone else...i mignt as well slit my chest and show u my pumping heart,arteries and all...but cannot let it be this way...

 

During the past days...i simply show myself too much how i would like to be perceived. Guess it must made someone sicked to his stomach, even pucked! i may be streching it  a bit, but when can i be truely rid of all these apprehensions and follow the pumping organ???

 

i should be grateful of all the attetion from about and here...

i should be working hard and counting the future days positively...

i should be doing a lot of things that i may not feel like doing but absolutely have to

 

or, maybe i shouldn't???

 

　2006-04-11 00:17